Hey all two of you who read this...

So my birthday is on Sunday...it's the time of year that I get to look back on my accomplishments and realize how much I haven't done. I f*ckin' hate my birthday. I'll be 36 this year - young in terms of total life expectancy, I suppose..(I could live to be 100 - that means 64 years left!) However, I find that it's more of a focus on the 4 years to 40...40 is when I think I really should be "grown up". I don't really see that happening, but I have this half-ass hope that by 40 I will have established a fairly successful (i.e. earning a living) illustration business here in Newfoundland that is unlike anything else around here.

I've never told you my dream? Well, let's get that out of the way! You see, I have this idealization that I open a small comic shop (geek) that also caters to the weird and fantastical (double geek) and, behind the store's counter, I have a drawing table set up where I do my illustration. My shop floor has couches for the kids to sit and read - hopefully stuff they bought - while the walls are not only lined with merchandise but also drawing tables and free access computers. A hangout really. I would teach drawing to kids a night or 2 a week, and have a drawing jam as well.

I want to sell a lifestyle, and give to the community a place where the kids can hang out - away from all the terrible things I see that happens when there is nothing to occupy the young mind. Whattaya think?

I am on the road to making it happen, but every now and then I get sidetracked...by my damn diabetes I suppose - which, when I don't control it, takes me over with a depression that really f*cks me up. I'm actually fighting through it now, which is why I'm rambling on this journal - I'm hoping to get out of the rut and get back to work.

Well - I do feel a little better, so thanks for listening. Hope we can chat again sometime.

Peace.

Kevin